A few weeks ago I dreamt about wrestling in high school. As a senior in high school I was a pretty good wrestler. I was team captain, and going into the county finals I was seeded first. Over the season I had compiled a record of 34-1, with my one loss coming to someone from outside the county. I easily made my way through the tournament bracket, making quick work of my competition. The county title was in my sights... and then it all fell apart. I got caught in a freak move, and fell behind 5-0. It was all downhill after that. I ended up losing the match 18-1, thus ending my high school wrestling career.
Then recently, I've been having another dream - this one related to college. As a senior in college I had to work with a group on a final project. Our project looked at the idea of implicit racism and it's effect on college students. I thought it was pretty great, but we had some trouble with the data analysis, and our argument wasn't as powerful as I would have liked. Now, I keep having this recurring dream that I have to present a final paper, and I haven't prepared anything.
Weird.
I don't know why these dreams of "unfinished business" are coming up now. Maybe I'm sleeping too much (is that possible?). Maybe with grad school looming in the not-so-distant future, I'm afraid of leaving more business unfinished?
Are there things in your life that feel incomplete or unfinished? How do you deal with them?
It's funny that you wrote about this topic. I was just talking with a good friend the other day about something similar: I always struggle with knowing when one chapter of my life is over, and another should/needs to begin. It's hard sometimes to get out of your own head, but if you can see things objectively, that's always best.
ReplyDeleteSo, how do you know if you're leaving something unfinished? When you have to ask that question of yourself.